Pinballing

I was pinballing/ slamming the back glass/ hitting every outlane/ triggering a ramp shot/ spinning red after years/ of running/nights/ of crashing/I wanted power over something/ anything/thought: what would it look like/ the glistening body/cut open/ the jewels of itself/turning? The back glass of the body/ breached? Would I come alive in the cut/you could say seeing my inside body/its wires & circuits/my spiky wrist/you could say gleeful at the sight? Say revenge/ say pitiful to be alive this way/ to have a body relax at the sight of it, you could say.